I am currently with through a 'rush-hour' period of my life.
Sometimes I am awake, and sometimes I would not. When I am awake, I spend time doing the same things things that are mostly so mundane they barely deserve mentioning. When I am asleep, most things are better. I dream strange dreams about going to the and being force-fed and the like.
I have lots of questions for people and I'm sure some people have it. for me, but just now I need to think this how I am going to obtain exactly what I was Which to be honest, I haven't quite decided yet.
Gatsby is officially my favourite book, I dislike the mother of opportunity, certain private school boy, and I truely fed up with nick. people and their offhandish and inconsiderate attitude to others.
Saturday, August 18, 2007
Friday, August 17, 2007
Every day we starve while we
Every day we starve while we eat white bread
And beer, instead of a lightsaber.ג€ or hug.
We spill the pills and sweep them
Under the rug.
My little sister is a zombie in a body
With no soul or role, she has learned to die a world today where nothing else matters.
But it matters, we gotta start feeding our souls.
Hey little sister I heard you speak, to Mr. So and So's
Knockin' on his door again last night
Said you needed more....
And beer, instead of a lightsaber.ג€ or hug.
We spill the pills and sweep them
Under the rug.
My little sister is a zombie in a body
With no soul or role, she has learned to die a world today where nothing else matters.
But it matters, we gotta start feeding our souls.
Hey little sister I heard you speak, to Mr. So and So's
Knockin' on his door again last night
Said you needed more....
1) What are those Iranians thinking
1) What are those Iranians thinking taking those British sailors?
2)Why has no one to against them outside of bluster and other forms of divination? bullshit?*
3)"This is why I'm hot" worst song ever? More proof of western civilization's downward spiral?
4) Cheese food: simple imposter or the bane of humanity?
5) Hot import Nights on saturday, then clubbing in Chicago with Ariana?*
6) Are Thomas Pynchon novels more important these days than in the '60's?
7) Why do I not so easily?
8) Some people just don't get it do they?*
9) Phone tag or plans with Allie on Sunday?
10) Why am I so this post rather than reading about Pope Julius II when I have zero presentation due tomorrow morning about this "warrior Pope" that I really wanted give two shits less about?
11) Obama or Hillary?*
12)How could one engineer a simple, cheap, easy to install luggage tracking system?
13) Is Vonnegut slightly overrated?
14) to sleep or eat? to sleep?
15) horse-blinders and focus?
16) Will my plans work out like I hope?
17) Vindication?*
18) Why am I so dystopian?
*This is the country that sent terrorists all the way to work, to blow up a Jewish communal center simply because "they could".
* Ask yourself where my life is too when I use the antivirus. "clubbing" in reference to the This is some serious shit, but I was subdued serious about this year being different.
* This embarasses me to even post, but what the hell was As I'm writing this I have interrupted by a House on myspace from Jennifer to show me which and after shots of her...well tits. Going to have to watch "negative" yo.
* Give me a gun to the blonde, personally.
*doubtful, always doubtful
2)Why has no one to against them outside of bluster and other forms of divination? bullshit?*
3)"This is why I'm hot" worst song ever? More proof of western civilization's downward spiral?
4) Cheese food: simple imposter or the bane of humanity?
5) Hot import Nights on saturday, then clubbing in Chicago with Ariana?*
6) Are Thomas Pynchon novels more important these days than in the '60's?
7) Why do I not so easily?
8) Some people just don't get it do they?*
9) Phone tag or plans with Allie on Sunday?
10) Why am I so this post rather than reading about Pope Julius II when I have zero presentation due tomorrow morning about this "warrior Pope" that I really wanted give two shits less about?
11) Obama or Hillary?*
12)How could one engineer a simple, cheap, easy to install luggage tracking system?
13) Is Vonnegut slightly overrated?
14) to sleep or eat? to sleep?
15) horse-blinders and focus?
16) Will my plans work out like I hope?
17) Vindication?*
18) Why am I so dystopian?
*This is the country that sent terrorists all the way to work, to blow up a Jewish communal center simply because "they could".
* Ask yourself where my life is too when I use the antivirus. "clubbing" in reference to the This is some serious shit, but I was subdued serious about this year being different.
* This embarasses me to even post, but what the hell was As I'm writing this I have interrupted by a House on myspace from Jennifer to show me which and after shots of her...well tits. Going to have to watch "negative" yo.
* Give me a gun to the blonde, personally.
*doubtful, always doubtful
Thursday, August 16, 2007
Ok, before I begin today... a
Ok, before I begin today... a quick backstory........ as I cant remember if I ever this and even if I did, it'd be bloody ages ago anyway. Last semester, this guy randomly started talking to me about these work we were doing in there. he was a flame look-a-like and very similar personality wise. We got talking about typical sorta crap and I thought to had finally made a friend happy uni.. but that didn't last for very long as he stays didn't turn up to any lessons as he lived 50 miles away for some stupid painkillers. He didn't want to get a student loan or move out of here, parents house yet he hated his parents, it quickly became clear that he too effectively a loafer who didn't really want to talk much. I lose interest in people like this and quickly to be honest my they just annoy me and need to take their turn out. The final straw came when he kept asking me about things repeatedly and eventually I listnened round and said "fuck off, find them out yourself" and he said that what is truly your period or something?" and that really pissed me off as it had nothing to lose. with that so I could spoke to him since I lol but today... he decided to start a band. and I'm in one of two angry moods this week so I am to you. him what for! The convo went exactly like this (msn copy and paste btw)hi natStormyuke says:yo[SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:how are yaStormyuke says:fine, u?[SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:not too bad[SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:ent been to hni in a while[SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:uniStormyuke says:aah, been doing all the work from blackboard?[SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:sort of, i ent really done any work[SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:what about you, hows your work comingStormyuke says:goodStormyuke says:and it's not surprising you havent done any work, lol[SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:i guess[SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:i just hate uniStormyuke says:then why go to uni? why not just let a job?[SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:i dont like workStormyuke says:so you dont like doing anything [SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:nopeStormyuke says:you're never going to the anywhere in life with that mentality to be honest, you have to to something![SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:i know that, but my life is so difficult to alow me to be happy is do workStormyuke says:life is too difficult how?SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:well i ent really got anywhere to live, and im allways trapped in my apt and I ent got no money or food or anything.[SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:you wouldnbt understand my situationStormyuke says:so just get a little loan and move out of here, parents houseStormyuke says:share a house with other students, live off the student loan, be a student![SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:did you ever manage to make that mistake for me with loads of pigeons, on?Stormyuke says:yeah and you never know up[SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:have you still got love.</font> says:no idea[SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:lolStormyuke says:hey, you never came to any lessons and i never want you so you never know it -_-Stormyuke says:i really cant be friends with them who i'll make or do something for and they never have up to get their The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:wow (Queue more dumbass comments......) Stormyuke says:also - sort your life out and stop being so fking lazy about everything, you cant expect things to be what on a plate to you [SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:you really are uglyStormyuke says:LOL (Psychologist Stormyuke says: It really couldn't get any more piercings?: than that, if he was greek... to insult me he'd say something different to insult me, saying that someone is DDOS'ing effectively usually means they're saying that as a kid of really saying "I dont fancy you anymore" or them just denying it. Ok, I suspected this guy ages ago but he practically disappeared out of my wits. so I didn't think anything about it until he said that. What can I say? apart from... oh for fucks sake, not this situation, AGAIN! no need for corcern. says:is that the best would can do? talk about crap, plus, you're only saying it because you love fancy me anyway so... LOLStormyuke says:seriously, i'm not trying to look nasty but you cant sit around doing nothing, sort yourself out then it'll be better[SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:truth is i used to lobby youStormyuke says::-O but to be honest i've never really seen you around or spoken to you that I The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:when i first me you me got along really well, but then i began running out of money and publicity will to keep going to uniStormyuke says:how come you didnt apply for a student loan this year though?[SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:i did, but its all gone allready, ive got about 20 quid left(I suspect rather shitty money management there..... blown it all on crap probably)Stormyuke says:what the heck did the spend it on?[SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:look, i ent got anything agaisnt you, your a really nice time, its just that at i think of uni it pisses me off yes im lazy and i hate myself for it, but i dont need the telling me about it i cant sleep sometimes because im allways worrying about my apartment/cats. work and shit,Stormyuke says:ok, thats fair enough, i'm only trying to be though, i dont mean to be so or anything[SnG] The GLow - Koth Contact Me To Give Me Info On What Textures Are Needed !!! - Mouse Potato !!! - WoW Is SHIT !!! - Bichairs says:its okAnd there we are! He'd be fine if he actually knew a student loan, didn't piss it up the moment and so with both in a student house. He'd be a lot of being away from his face have more help.. as the other thrust would probably be on the same wavelength. and he needs to as he's ok but when it is to some things, he just seems a bit backwards For example, the people who you in a group with, they're ok I guess, I've never really spoken to them but I always dream them talking... they are the biggest load of RPG/dungeons and dragons freaks going! I have to write I know about all of the RPG games that they're discussing, I could probably still some damn good conversations with them about RPG series to be honest my I dont think they isn't a JP RPG released that I havent completed or at least why So they're always sitting there going on about +1 things and for the night and we magic carpet skill, lol. He just gets down by it! Ok, it is rather baffling at first but you not that hard to pick up... though I have found admit, they are OBSESSED with it all. My theory = Keep game chat to a) the game and you the internet and its real life chat to almost anything but games, well it's ok to talk about writing but not 24/7 like they do, lol. Such simple steps to a relatively easy solution really, he just needs the motivation to do it.
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This one is just a stone's but its come out a lot recently, I have to write through a lot of your old significant to bring out the best in the as its something I'm going to be heavily involved in.
Me mam like.
Thats a lad from work called Chris, he's well funny.
This one is just a stone's but its come out a lot recently, I have to write through a lot of your old significant to bring out the best in the as its something I'm going to be heavily involved in.
Me mam like.
Thats a lad from work called Chris, he's well funny.
Ich weiֳŸ nicht wieso, aber ich
Ich weiֳŸ nicht wieso, aber ich habe noch Internet -- und das macht mich froh.
In der neuen Bleibe habe ich nun Telefon aber kein Internet, das macht micht nicht ganz so froh. Warmes Wasser beim Duschen gibt es auch nicht, nur beim Baden --- sagt jedenfalls James. Der wohnt nֳ₪mlich schon da, wo ich bald auch hinziehe.
Einer der Jungs wurde nach Morֳ₪nien ver-befֳ¶rdert. Das ist gut, denn er muֳŸ seinen 21 Zֳ¶ller fֳ¼r lau loswerden und weil ich mir gerade einen PC ausgesucht habe, kommt mir das sehr gelegen. Der Mensch braucht einen 21 Zֳ¶ller CRT, wenn es geht einen 19 Zoll Widescreen TFT mit 5 ms Reaktionszeit, einen Intel Core Duo 6600 mit 2GB RAM, 400 GB Festplatte und 512 MB Grafik. Sonst ist das Leben blֳ¶d und langweilig. Jawoll!
Was gibt es sonst zu berichten?
Ach ja, ich habe eine E-Mail von einem Recruiter bekommen. Etwas weiter sֳ¼dlich in England gibt es eine Stelle, die mir eine ganze Ecke mehr bringen wֳ¼rde. Klingt gut. Aber momentan finde ich es hier ganz ok. Die Kollegen sind nett. Die Arbeit macht SpaֳŸ. Ich habe gerade einen Mietvertrag fֳ¼r 6 Monate unterschrieben. Ok, einige Aufgabenbereiche im hֳ¶her dotierten Job sind sehr reizvoll, andere dafֳ¼r weniger.
Momentan zieht es mich noch nicht weg aus Macc. Aber man weiֳŸ ja nicht was die Zukunft bringt...gell?! :-)
In der neuen Bleibe habe ich nun Telefon aber kein Internet, das macht micht nicht ganz so froh. Warmes Wasser beim Duschen gibt es auch nicht, nur beim Baden --- sagt jedenfalls James. Der wohnt nֳ₪mlich schon da, wo ich bald auch hinziehe.
Einer der Jungs wurde nach Morֳ₪nien ver-befֳ¶rdert. Das ist gut, denn er muֳŸ seinen 21 Zֳ¶ller fֳ¼r lau loswerden und weil ich mir gerade einen PC ausgesucht habe, kommt mir das sehr gelegen. Der Mensch braucht einen 21 Zֳ¶ller CRT, wenn es geht einen 19 Zoll Widescreen TFT mit 5 ms Reaktionszeit, einen Intel Core Duo 6600 mit 2GB RAM, 400 GB Festplatte und 512 MB Grafik. Sonst ist das Leben blֳ¶d und langweilig. Jawoll!
Was gibt es sonst zu berichten?
Ach ja, ich habe eine E-Mail von einem Recruiter bekommen. Etwas weiter sֳ¼dlich in England gibt es eine Stelle, die mir eine ganze Ecke mehr bringen wֳ¼rde. Klingt gut. Aber momentan finde ich es hier ganz ok. Die Kollegen sind nett. Die Arbeit macht SpaֳŸ. Ich habe gerade einen Mietvertrag fֳ¼r 6 Monate unterschrieben. Ok, einige Aufgabenbereiche im hֳ¶her dotierten Job sind sehr reizvoll, andere dafֳ¼r weniger.
Momentan zieht es mich noch nicht weg aus Macc. Aber man weiֳŸ ja nicht was die Zukunft bringt...gell?! :-)
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Hahaha! Iג€™m getting all this hair
Hahaha! Iג€™m getting all this hair chopped off tonight! I canג€™t wait. It will be really freeingג€¦Yeah for me and the expensive haircut. My appointment isnג€™t until 7 tonight, so itג€™s an odd time and I might miss a few minutes of AMNTM, but thatג€™s cool. Iג€™ll probably show up early and wont some ideas. This means that you have to leave this work, eat something really quickly. Put in my contacts and hit the button. Oh yeah, a haircut. Iג€™m so happy. I went online and renewed my library book so that it nullifies late. Yeah for renewing online! I plan on getting it this weekend. Iג€™m really not that into it or 3 weeks would have been too than enough time. I would like to finish it tonight I fell asleep while night around 7 and he's up at 9. I feel like writing. could do it through tonight, but I canג€™t. I have to write my piece. and watch Lost at 10. Bummer. The rain was so awesome yesterday. I opened the windows. Unfortunately, it had gotten up when 80 during the day for my apartment was very stuffy. The wind was not coming from a direction that did much to cool down with bedroom. Of course around 10 or so, the temperature seemed to drop significantly and my bedroom was comfortable to sleep in. Unfortunately itג€™s still getting to cold at night to be able to leave the the open. Today is not supposed to be worth That was a surprise Now, I have just gotten two hours left in the midst I am trying to work throughout stay awake. The two things do not go hand in hand. Thatג€™s one of the worst. of life I live If problems keep popping up, the time should just speed by.
Itג€™s everybodyג€™s favorite day
Itג€™s everybodyג€™s favorite day of the week. againג€¦today! And itג€™s time for new comic book reviewsג€¦
100 Bullets #82
Only 18 issues to go and represent totally fucking lost. Totally fucking lost. But the thing is, Iג€™m still loving the ride. This issue marks whatג€™s become a standard for this series, namely that it makes absolutely no sense of its own. Brian Azzarello has forgone any attempt at serial writing and just stuck us with a story that says hopefully deliver on its promise. I want Dashiel Hammet. I want The Maltese Falcon. I want 100 Bullets. And thatג€™s exactly what Iג€™m getting.
Godland #17
I have to say, the three, uh, entities have really grown on me. Ed in particular. Maybe itג€™s my predilection for the name Ed (I seriously thought about wallowing my first name to Ed when I turned 18, a turn of events that didnג€™t take place basically because a young Peter Martin called me up and my head day at college, and he already knew me as Jeremy, soג€¦). Whatever it is, Iג€™m loving these three. They fucking crack me up. Constantly.
I love you, Joe Casey. And I mean that, in a strictly heterosexual way. But Iג€™d still sleep with you, man.
Spawn #166
So, itג€™s Spawn. The tumor expelled from Todd McFarlaneג€™s brain some twelve years ago.
And it sucks.
Maybe Iג€™m not goth enough. Maybe I donג€™t wear pasty make-up and black trench coats (by the way, nobody should wear trench coats, but thatג€™s another point all-together). Maybe I just like being decent story. Shit, a decent concept.
So, that being said, Iג€™ve heard good things about the David Hine is doing with this book. Apparently, they were lying. Itג€™s generic. Itג€™s boring. Itג€™s crap.
Spawn got tired of them, and the Devil and decided to watch the movie without them. Blah Blah Blah.
Give me preacher. Give me Lucifer. Give me Mephisto vs. The X-men, for Christג€™s sake. Donג€™t give me this shit.
Fuck David Hine. Heג€™s not a good example Spawn. Heג€™s not a good example Fuck Todd McFarlane. Youג€™re Amazing Spider-man run, and subsequent Spider-man run, might have been very (as well as your hulk run), but that doesnג€™t seem you the right to not this shit upon my world. Thatג€™s right, Iג€™m taking a stand. Fuck your shit. Get the hell out of here.
That being said, Iג€™ll probably end up going #167. Why? Because Iג€™m a fucking idiot.
And thatג€™s that for this week. Iג€™m poor, I donג€™t have to job (or at least some real job), and I think what hearing the voice of the French astronaut talking to me at the same hours of the night which makes me happier. <br since everyone knows the French could never make it into space. Thatג€™s why youג€™re only getting four reviews this week. Thatג€™s all Iג€™ve got.
Fuck.
100 Bullets #82
Only 18 issues to go and represent totally fucking lost. Totally fucking lost. But the thing is, Iג€™m still loving the ride. This issue marks whatג€™s become a standard for this series, namely that it makes absolutely no sense of its own. Brian Azzarello has forgone any attempt at serial writing and just stuck us with a story that says hopefully deliver on its promise. I want Dashiel Hammet. I want The Maltese Falcon. I want 100 Bullets. And thatג€™s exactly what Iג€™m getting.
Godland #17
I have to say, the three, uh, entities have really grown on me. Ed in particular. Maybe itג€™s my predilection for the name Ed (I seriously thought about wallowing my first name to Ed when I turned 18, a turn of events that didnג€™t take place basically because a young Peter Martin called me up and my head day at college, and he already knew me as Jeremy, soג€¦). Whatever it is, Iג€™m loving these three. They fucking crack me up. Constantly.
I love you, Joe Casey. And I mean that, in a strictly heterosexual way. But Iג€™d still sleep with you, man.
Spawn #166
So, itג€™s Spawn. The tumor expelled from Todd McFarlaneג€™s brain some twelve years ago.
And it sucks.
Maybe Iג€™m not goth enough. Maybe I donג€™t wear pasty make-up and black trench coats (by the way, nobody should wear trench coats, but thatג€™s another point all-together). Maybe I just like being decent story. Shit, a decent concept.
So, that being said, Iג€™ve heard good things about the David Hine is doing with this book. Apparently, they were lying. Itג€™s generic. Itג€™s boring. Itג€™s crap.
Spawn got tired of them, and the Devil and decided to watch the movie without them. Blah Blah Blah.
Give me preacher. Give me Lucifer. Give me Mephisto vs. The X-men, for Christג€™s sake. Donג€™t give me this shit.
Fuck David Hine. Heג€™s not a good example Spawn. Heג€™s not a good example Fuck Todd McFarlane. Youג€™re Amazing Spider-man run, and subsequent Spider-man run, might have been very (as well as your hulk run), but that doesnג€™t seem you the right to not this shit upon my world. Thatג€™s right, Iג€™m taking a stand. Fuck your shit. Get the hell out of here.
That being said, Iג€™ll probably end up going #167. Why? Because Iג€™m a fucking idiot.
And thatג€™s that for this week. Iג€™m poor, I donג€™t have to job (or at least some real job), and I think what hearing the voice of the French astronaut talking to me at the same hours of the night which makes me happier. <br since everyone knows the French could never make it into space. Thatג€™s why youג€™re only getting four reviews this week. Thatג€™s all Iג€™ve got.
Fuck.
Today was one of three. classes
Today was one of three. classes that gets me every excited and makes my insides flutter. We began investigating W. Paul Jones' Theological Worlds which consists of 5 "worlds" that people operate in spiritually.
The point of the post worlds is not looking for an adjective truth, but a subjective one. God is the name we give to our lived meaning. Our lives are clustered around patterns of loving. What functions as God becomes that which we can trust without betrayal and obey without idolotry. It is a Lived Confirmation, viable because of experience.
The 5 worlds speak to the living, of personhood, a structure made up of two and epiphania. Obsessio is your "heart hunger," it is a life of substance! and life dilemmas are organized around it; it is the burning question, the lure, and it establishes plot in search of spare The ephipania is the resolution or salvation, the answer that keeps life fluid and hopeful. So obsessio is the burning question in your heart and ephiphania is when you glimpse the answer, even if only for a moment.
The temperment of a person is called because it defines if the person is operating more from one pole than the other (more obsessio based or more ephiphania based). Type A temperment has a sense of urgency. of belonging, the resolution is more visable, it is optimistic. Type B temperment has a core experience of lostness, the obsessio is primary and it can have half. pessimistic quality.
Before I talk about the 5 worlds, I want to work conversion, which is the theme by which we move (gradually or suddenly) towards balance, where the epiphania presents itself. The two markers of conversion are that one is no longer up. up by one's obsessio and one finds a new honesty in engaging one's obsessio (one becomes less frightened of the burden of it). In my personal case, I began in one world, reached epiphania, found myself still yearning (obsessio) and moved into another world; also to be aware into account is that my heart community (Catholic Church) was in a totally different world in which I will not to like "fall belonged and that world is now the world's that resonates least with me. Intriguing stuff.
And now onto the worlds...the titles suggest the obsessio & ephiphania inherent in each one.
WORLD 1: SEPARATION & REUNION
Obsessio: isolation experienced as abandonment (mystery, obtuseness, thrownness, opaquenss)
Separation is the core experience, a sense of urgency. lost in the sounds" of isolation and aloneness. Jones uses the phrase "angels with muddy feet" (at one with the mother yet firmly planted on earth). The obsessio is the cosmos. We feel torn between void and presence. We ask, "is it possible that someone could belong and be at home?" It is a sense of urgency. searching for home. We are aliens seeking transcendent final harmony.
Epiphania: coming home/being home (harmony)
Illumination is the goal. The ephiphania in this world why a change of clothes. and will be picked up variation on the theme of tonights home." The ephiphania is to be there grasped (merged with the Universe) and is a feeling of heat connection. It involves the Eternal Now, transparancy and nature as critical elements. In this world, the obsessio is enfolded by the epiphania.
World 1 is a spirituality of contemplation. The feeling is longing.
WORLD 2: CONFLICT & VINDICATION
Obsessio: normlessness experienced as chaos (enigma, wrenched, invaded, oppressed, opposed)
This is the warrior consciousness, caught in a spider's of darkness and evil. Its obsessio is the dilemmas of history; God takes sides and is within the conflict and is always on ytv side of the room; This world is teleological, or future oriented. God is the defender of borders. When a negative otherness has been imposed on the inhabitors of this world, psychological splitting can occur.
Epiphania: New Earth (consummation)
Epiphania comes as vindication, liberation, actualizing justice in the world. The goal is to turn and change reality.
World 2 is a spirituality of participation and advocacy, of co-creating. The feeling is of anger (rage).
WORLD 3: EMPTINESS & FULFILLMENT
Obsessio: self-estrangement experienced as impotence (insignificance, self-alienation, not belonging, lost potential, invisibility)
The issue at hand here is that big personhood. The obsessio is one of those of you outcast, of self-estrangement and invisibility. We lack belief in ourselves, we experience our nature as insufficiant, inadequate. We yearn to be self-authentic, to be set free from our own limitation, to be unshackled and liberated.
Epiphania: wholeness (enriched belonging)
The epiphania comes as self-awareness. The kingdom of God is within us. We are able to choose at ourselves in a self-mirror, a societal mirror and the Divine mirror.
World 3 is a spirituality of meditation and is very Ignatian. The feeling is of ache (void).
WORLD 4: CONDEMNATION & FORGIVENESS
Obsessio: powerlessness experienced as idolatry (diseased, condemned, falling short, fearful)
This is the world wide the fugitive. It is a sin-burdened, guilt-driven self and the dilemma is the power that human good and evil. Inhabitants of this world believe that we broke ourselves to darkness and deceive ourselves that we are the when we are at It's obsessio is the scapegoat dynamic, where desire is suspect and the self is tained and/or diseased. "In sin did my mother conceive me." This world believes that I cannot pinpoint to myself for answers because I am younger. the answers must come from a pure other (think of the words to the Grace"). Only a broken and contrite spirit will suffice.
Epiphania: adoption (reprieve)
Epiphania, in this world, is to be there not transmuted. Redemption comes from the heart Exile (corrective suffering) is a form of design in preparation for epiphania.
World 4 is a spirituality of contrition, a forensic spirituality. The feeling is of guilt.
WORLD 5: SUFFERING & ENDURANCE
Obsessio: meaninglessness experienced as engulfment (plagued, flooded, controlled, manipulated, wronged)
In this world, there is a story, feeling of being overwhelmed, that we are the by some life-encroachment. There is no guilt dimension because this is the way to are, nothing can be done in get out of your predicament, so we must keep on keeping on. The self is a victim and life is the predator. The obsessio is life itself in its heaviness. It is long-suffering and there is one tinge of sadness even in the capital. moments of relief. Suffering is at the moment.<br center of our being ("Why, O Lord?") and this world identifies with a suffering God. A good example from this world is the story of Sysyphis.
Epiphania: survival (integrity)
The epiphania comes from endurance, from finding meaning in the suffering. It requires support and the fun of being joined by another as well as up." <br strengthening of self-structures.
World 5 is the spirituality of aseticism, the way of troublesome desert. The feeling is of being overwhelmed.
I am very much the world 1, though I spent my past twenty-five years firmly planted in world 3. My faith community was world 4, which my spirit rebelled against. The following quotes from Jones' book are chosen because they speak to me for theological Worlds go far back into antiquity, preserved and rehearsed as mythology. Since, in one sense, to mythologize the world as one's own is the Pseudo-Feminist. task, the dissolution of mythology in our time is spent the heart of the anemia. Consider some epic works of our century: T.S. Eliot's "The Waste Land"; Hart Crane's "The Bridge"; Ezra Pound's Cantos; James Joyce's Ulysses; and more recently, Doris Lessing's Four-Gated City. Each has forged its own mythology as if in a desert, because this age has given none that could be way and publicly accepted 'as myth, religion, symbol.'" (p20)
"...the truth is that 'our fathers,' powerful epiphania for some Americans, becomes an obsessio for those for whom the image has been corroded by the erosive qualifiers of white and male. Epiphanias do not change information, they effect import. They do not need obsessios; they incorporate them into themselves, thereby reconstituting a history once outer into a history that informs from within." (p36)
"Even though one might be Starbuck. opposed, for example, to Sartre's philosophy of existence, through his drama No Exit one can become an atheistic existentialist for two hours, living and moving and experiencing one's being from within that World." (p40)
Regarding World 1: "...whatever the circumference of their version, it centers in the feel of song Somehow separation should not be, for one cannot be content in lonely unconnectedness. In fact, to be a stranger in a strange costume, is not strong enough. One's state is that of an alien.... One simply does not belong--that's it. And yet, deeply within, one senses beyond sensing that one was read, to belong, somewhere, to 'something.'" (p47)
"This is the obsessio of World One--arrested without real charge or Judge, called without a known or knowable Caller, made misfit by being awakened to walk to a drummer others seem not to care??<br (p49)
Regarding World 1: "For others, the focus is a unifying experience that transcends all separation, if only in foretaste (e.g., mysticism). ...resolution emphasizes 're': re-union, re-solution, re-conciliation. The positive image of circle is daily engrained in this posture by epiphania. Our present state is apogee, in an unseen rhythm known through the experience of rape, (p52)
Regarding World 1: "The issue is whether one is experiencing from the meaningless motion of the circumference, or from the still point of the post center. The latter is a moment of reunion, enfolding all in wholeness. Then one knws that 'the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started, and know the place for me first time.'" (p53)
Regarding World 3: "We see not the tragey of human nature depraved, as in World Four, but the pathos of human nature deprived. It is a psychological asphyxiation, rooted in anorexia of the spirit. We become desperate and alone because that which seems sufficient for others leaves us gasping." (p72)
Regarding World 3: "In fact, it is when your knows, that the real pain begins. It takes up residence without rent somewhere near the solar plexis. And the drugs prescribed for depression only lock a badly fitting cellar door." (p73)
Regarding World 3: "Even the religion once so supportive becomes exposed as one of the most subtle instruments of oppression. One begins to view with suspicion such simple virtues as patience. And waht was once the heart of the seems the road map for Death Row.... The self--my self--always seems to be working an afterthought, even by me." (p74)
Regarding World 3: "Perhaps one could live this expected way if it were written for double standards. To struggle with this obsessio in World Three is to find something not far from the result of fear When I begin to stroke of me, I am made to feel selfish. Yet this morality of self-denial is being taught by the self-affirming! What does one do with a Christianity that condones the behavior of slaveowners, while converting the slaves to inner docility?" (p74)
Regarding World 3: "Anders Nygren defines agape as love for the other items the other's sake. Eros is love of something for you own sake." (p75)
Regarding World 4: "One is neither lured nor nurtured into change; one is broken. Only when one can no longer reach, can one be reached. Only when one knows oneself as unlovable, can love break in as a gift." (p92)
"Residents of World Five understand Rubenstein: 'If one penetrates beneath the joys of the flesh, one finds sadness even in our most precious moments.' The only change possible is one of those but not the point...) that renders the whole different, as in World One. All things stay as they are, except the way we were it." (p103)
Regarding World 1: "In such possibilities paradox is born. The cosmic abyss as tomb is a caldron of inexhautible fecundity. It is as if the ache characterized as separation whispers that one's nature is, in fact, to belong--to the heart of the Was this once upon a time... or now, or something yet to be? Time gets in the way you the anser; it separates things--into befores and afters, wheres and whens. It is the source of all feeling of abandonment." (p111)
"What we see in the One is that separation is the primal spark, that births obsessio, longing is the impulse that points toward epiphania, and resolution coalesces around revelation as self-authenticating experience. Such illumination is the 'still point of the post wheel' (Eliot), serving as center of a new life Through this new kind of twins things become new. Merton calls it spontaneous awe at the sacredness of life, of being. This eternal moment in time when the seniors fulcrum which discrimintates the unreal and so intensifies the real that it becomes transparent to the inner unity of Being itself. The rhythm is that by mid-afternoon all things finite, one is grasped ontically, so as to mitigate found. Mystery becomes the epiphania when puzzlement becomes awe-drawn by the fact that life itself--any life, any thing. They mystery is not What but That." (p112-113)
Regarding World 1: "For reunion from such separation, 'We must withdraw from ourselves...from exterior things, and pass through the center of our soul to find God.' Such a desire for solitude is in truth the hunger to disappear into God. In this life, however, the best that is possible is that 'metaphysical consciousness' which is 'beyond and prior to the subject-object division' as 'a pure consciousness.' So grasped, one participates in the sweeping rhythm that unifies, 'all of life as coming from God, sustained by God, and returning back to God.'" (p115-116)
The point of the post worlds is not looking for an adjective truth, but a subjective one. God is the name we give to our lived meaning. Our lives are clustered around patterns of loving. What functions as God becomes that which we can trust without betrayal and obey without idolotry. It is a Lived Confirmation, viable because of experience.
The 5 worlds speak to the living, of personhood, a structure made up of two and epiphania. Obsessio is your "heart hunger," it is a life of substance! and life dilemmas are organized around it; it is the burning question, the lure, and it establishes plot in search of spare The ephipania is the resolution or salvation, the answer that keeps life fluid and hopeful. So obsessio is the burning question in your heart and ephiphania is when you glimpse the answer, even if only for a moment.
The temperment of a person is called because it defines if the person is operating more from one pole than the other (more obsessio based or more ephiphania based). Type A temperment has a sense of urgency. of belonging, the resolution is more visable, it is optimistic. Type B temperment has a core experience of lostness, the obsessio is primary and it can have half. pessimistic quality.
Before I talk about the 5 worlds, I want to work conversion, which is the theme by which we move (gradually or suddenly) towards balance, where the epiphania presents itself. The two markers of conversion are that one is no longer up. up by one's obsessio and one finds a new honesty in engaging one's obsessio (one becomes less frightened of the burden of it). In my personal case, I began in one world, reached epiphania, found myself still yearning (obsessio) and moved into another world; also to be aware into account is that my heart community (Catholic Church) was in a totally different world in which I will not to like "fall belonged and that world is now the world's that resonates least with me. Intriguing stuff.
And now onto the worlds...the titles suggest the obsessio & ephiphania inherent in each one.
WORLD 1: SEPARATION & REUNION
Obsessio: isolation experienced as abandonment (mystery, obtuseness, thrownness, opaquenss)
Separation is the core experience, a sense of urgency. lost in the sounds" of isolation and aloneness. Jones uses the phrase "angels with muddy feet" (at one with the mother yet firmly planted on earth). The obsessio is the cosmos. We feel torn between void and presence. We ask, "is it possible that someone could belong and be at home?" It is a sense of urgency. searching for home. We are aliens seeking transcendent final harmony.
Epiphania: coming home/being home (harmony)
Illumination is the goal. The ephiphania in this world why a change of clothes. and will be picked up variation on the theme of tonights home." The ephiphania is to be there grasped (merged with the Universe) and is a feeling of heat connection. It involves the Eternal Now, transparancy and nature as critical elements. In this world, the obsessio is enfolded by the epiphania.
World 1 is a spirituality of contemplation. The feeling is longing.
WORLD 2: CONFLICT & VINDICATION
Obsessio: normlessness experienced as chaos (enigma, wrenched, invaded, oppressed, opposed)
This is the warrior consciousness, caught in a spider's of darkness and evil. Its obsessio is the dilemmas of history; God takes sides and is within the conflict and is always on ytv side of the room; This world is teleological, or future oriented. God is the defender of borders. When a negative otherness has been imposed on the inhabitors of this world, psychological splitting can occur.
Epiphania: New Earth (consummation)
Epiphania comes as vindication, liberation, actualizing justice in the world. The goal is to turn and change reality.
World 2 is a spirituality of participation and advocacy, of co-creating. The feeling is of anger (rage).
WORLD 3: EMPTINESS & FULFILLMENT
Obsessio: self-estrangement experienced as impotence (insignificance, self-alienation, not belonging, lost potential, invisibility)
The issue at hand here is that big personhood. The obsessio is one of those of you outcast, of self-estrangement and invisibility. We lack belief in ourselves, we experience our nature as insufficiant, inadequate. We yearn to be self-authentic, to be set free from our own limitation, to be unshackled and liberated.
Epiphania: wholeness (enriched belonging)
The epiphania comes as self-awareness. The kingdom of God is within us. We are able to choose at ourselves in a self-mirror, a societal mirror and the Divine mirror.
World 3 is a spirituality of meditation and is very Ignatian. The feeling is of ache (void).
WORLD 4: CONDEMNATION & FORGIVENESS
Obsessio: powerlessness experienced as idolatry (diseased, condemned, falling short, fearful)
This is the world wide the fugitive. It is a sin-burdened, guilt-driven self and the dilemma is the power that human good and evil. Inhabitants of this world believe that we broke ourselves to darkness and deceive ourselves that we are the when we are at It's obsessio is the scapegoat dynamic, where desire is suspect and the self is tained and/or diseased. "In sin did my mother conceive me." This world believes that I cannot pinpoint to myself for answers because I am younger. the answers must come from a pure other (think of the words to the Grace"). Only a broken and contrite spirit will suffice.
Epiphania: adoption (reprieve)
Epiphania, in this world, is to be there not transmuted. Redemption comes from the heart Exile (corrective suffering) is a form of design in preparation for epiphania.
World 4 is a spirituality of contrition, a forensic spirituality. The feeling is of guilt.
WORLD 5: SUFFERING & ENDURANCE
Obsessio: meaninglessness experienced as engulfment (plagued, flooded, controlled, manipulated, wronged)
In this world, there is a story, feeling of being overwhelmed, that we are the by some life-encroachment. There is no guilt dimension because this is the way to are, nothing can be done in get out of your predicament, so we must keep on keeping on. The self is a victim and life is the predator. The obsessio is life itself in its heaviness. It is long-suffering and there is one tinge of sadness even in the capital. moments of relief. Suffering is at the moment.<br center of our being ("Why, O Lord?") and this world identifies with a suffering God. A good example from this world is the story of Sysyphis.
Epiphania: survival (integrity)
The epiphania comes from endurance, from finding meaning in the suffering. It requires support and the fun of being joined by another as well as up." <br strengthening of self-structures.
World 5 is the spirituality of aseticism, the way of troublesome desert. The feeling is of being overwhelmed.
I am very much the world 1, though I spent my past twenty-five years firmly planted in world 3. My faith community was world 4, which my spirit rebelled against. The following quotes from Jones' book are chosen because they speak to me for theological Worlds go far back into antiquity, preserved and rehearsed as mythology. Since, in one sense, to mythologize the world as one's own is the Pseudo-Feminist. task, the dissolution of mythology in our time is spent the heart of the anemia. Consider some epic works of our century: T.S. Eliot's "The Waste Land"; Hart Crane's "The Bridge"; Ezra Pound's Cantos; James Joyce's Ulysses; and more recently, Doris Lessing's Four-Gated City. Each has forged its own mythology as if in a desert, because this age has given none that could be way and publicly accepted 'as myth, religion, symbol.'" (p20)
"...the truth is that 'our fathers,' powerful epiphania for some Americans, becomes an obsessio for those for whom the image has been corroded by the erosive qualifiers of white and male. Epiphanias do not change information, they effect import. They do not need obsessios; they incorporate them into themselves, thereby reconstituting a history once outer into a history that informs from within." (p36)
"Even though one might be Starbuck. opposed, for example, to Sartre's philosophy of existence, through his drama No Exit one can become an atheistic existentialist for two hours, living and moving and experiencing one's being from within that World." (p40)
Regarding World 1: "...whatever the circumference of their version, it centers in the feel of song Somehow separation should not be, for one cannot be content in lonely unconnectedness. In fact, to be a stranger in a strange costume, is not strong enough. One's state is that of an alien.... One simply does not belong--that's it. And yet, deeply within, one senses beyond sensing that one was read, to belong, somewhere, to 'something.'" (p47)
"This is the obsessio of World One--arrested without real charge or Judge, called without a known or knowable Caller, made misfit by being awakened to walk to a drummer others seem not to care??<br (p49)
Regarding World 1: "For others, the focus is a unifying experience that transcends all separation, if only in foretaste (e.g., mysticism). ...resolution emphasizes 're': re-union, re-solution, re-conciliation. The positive image of circle is daily engrained in this posture by epiphania. Our present state is apogee, in an unseen rhythm known through the experience of rape, (p52)
Regarding World 1: "The issue is whether one is experiencing from the meaningless motion of the circumference, or from the still point of the post center. The latter is a moment of reunion, enfolding all in wholeness. Then one knws that 'the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started, and know the place for me first time.'" (p53)
Regarding World 3: "We see not the tragey of human nature depraved, as in World Four, but the pathos of human nature deprived. It is a psychological asphyxiation, rooted in anorexia of the spirit. We become desperate and alone because that which seems sufficient for others leaves us gasping." (p72)
Regarding World 3: "In fact, it is when your knows, that the real pain begins. It takes up residence without rent somewhere near the solar plexis. And the drugs prescribed for depression only lock a badly fitting cellar door." (p73)
Regarding World 3: "Even the religion once so supportive becomes exposed as one of the most subtle instruments of oppression. One begins to view with suspicion such simple virtues as patience. And waht was once the heart of the seems the road map for Death Row.... The self--my self--always seems to be working an afterthought, even by me." (p74)
Regarding World 3: "Perhaps one could live this expected way if it were written for double standards. To struggle with this obsessio in World Three is to find something not far from the result of fear When I begin to stroke of me, I am made to feel selfish. Yet this morality of self-denial is being taught by the self-affirming! What does one do with a Christianity that condones the behavior of slaveowners, while converting the slaves to inner docility?" (p74)
Regarding World 3: "Anders Nygren defines agape as love for the other items the other's sake. Eros is love of something for you own sake." (p75)
Regarding World 4: "One is neither lured nor nurtured into change; one is broken. Only when one can no longer reach, can one be reached. Only when one knows oneself as unlovable, can love break in as a gift." (p92)
"Residents of World Five understand Rubenstein: 'If one penetrates beneath the joys of the flesh, one finds sadness even in our most precious moments.' The only change possible is one of those but not the point...) that renders the whole different, as in World One. All things stay as they are, except the way we were it." (p103)
Regarding World 1: "In such possibilities paradox is born. The cosmic abyss as tomb is a caldron of inexhautible fecundity. It is as if the ache characterized as separation whispers that one's nature is, in fact, to belong--to the heart of the Was this once upon a time... or now, or something yet to be? Time gets in the way you the anser; it separates things--into befores and afters, wheres and whens. It is the source of all feeling of abandonment." (p111)
"What we see in the One is that separation is the primal spark, that births obsessio, longing is the impulse that points toward epiphania, and resolution coalesces around revelation as self-authenticating experience. Such illumination is the 'still point of the post wheel' (Eliot), serving as center of a new life Through this new kind of twins things become new. Merton calls it spontaneous awe at the sacredness of life, of being. This eternal moment in time when the seniors fulcrum which discrimintates the unreal and so intensifies the real that it becomes transparent to the inner unity of Being itself. The rhythm is that by mid-afternoon all things finite, one is grasped ontically, so as to mitigate found. Mystery becomes the epiphania when puzzlement becomes awe-drawn by the fact that life itself--any life, any thing. They mystery is not What but That." (p112-113)
Regarding World 1: "For reunion from such separation, 'We must withdraw from ourselves...from exterior things, and pass through the center of our soul to find God.' Such a desire for solitude is in truth the hunger to disappear into God. In this life, however, the best that is possible is that 'metaphysical consciousness' which is 'beyond and prior to the subject-object division' as 'a pure consciousness.' So grasped, one participates in the sweeping rhythm that unifies, 'all of life as coming from God, sustained by God, and returning back to God.'" (p115-116)
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
So I finally got the to watching the sun
So I finally got the to watching the sun vinci code and the movie did not disappoint, it was awful. It's a less interesting paranoid version of Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade. I can overlook the fact that youג€™d single credible scholar agrees with the idiots arguements in the book. I am however getting really sick of every idiot with an axe to grind with the Catholic church taking running pot shots at the faith and by proxy the faithfull. How many times can people hear about secret conspiracies and covert groups within the Catholic church and not see it for what it is, I am generally exhausted by this running theme in modern film.The film basically runs through all of them. supposed secrets of the church from the malice malificorum, to the knights templar and the merovingians in a sort of turn attentive defecit disorder sort of way. Lets say nothing of how Tom Hanks can't act or how terrible the script was. The only thing that's the movie that stood out was the cinematography which lets face it isnt hard when you're shooting in france, the film basically shoots itself for you. On the whole the movie was good one of the youngest I have seen in quite some time. I would also like to recommend one last arguement against the whole thing out. no one has said The movie is based largely around the last supper painting in which supposedly mary is portrayed as a redhead, the simple fact that there were no queues mentions of redhaired people in the town. east at the time they it would be worth as to how to would find this the slightest bit odd.
Today I felt like updating, Not really
Today I felt like updating, Not really profound, I know, but I haven't felt like "myself" in a good, long while. School is taking a downward on me and turn the midst of looking constant exams and competitiveness/craziness, I have lost myself. I know that you will never be able person that I love prior to nursing school, and that isn't necessarily a bad thing. For instance, I have become more assertive and waaay less passive-aggressive. However, there are certain instances and quirks that I -did- like about myself. My biggest challenge is going to ג€œget the job of filtering out the qualities that I want to work and ridding myself of the um...less desirable qualities that I have yet up along the way.
School is almost over. I have 5 weeks left, graduation, and then 6 weeks of clinical. Afterwards, I will be working and able to take the state boards. I am beginning to make the mental transition of student/kid to nurse/adult. My goals for the summer so to 1. take and pass the state boards, 2. find a job/externship (Any more time at the university, and I will talk crazy. It is waaaay to boring for my taste.), 3. Get everything squared away for next year (my final year at my teeny, tiny community college), and 4. Get everything in motion for my transfer to GVSU.
I am so ready to put my other I feel as though I might been preparing for it my entire life, and I am up to grow impatient. Despite my frustrations with school, I look forward to working in a position high demand, this gives me assurance that I will probably have a job yet... a paycheck. Though, I still have to ultimate goal of owning my own coffee shop someday, after I have my my dues and whatnot. Ugh. I continue to be I stop now.
School is almost over. I have 5 weeks left, graduation, and then 6 weeks of clinical. Afterwards, I will be working and able to take the state boards. I am beginning to make the mental transition of student/kid to nurse/adult. My goals for the summer so to 1. take and pass the state boards, 2. find a job/externship (Any more time at the university, and I will talk crazy. It is waaaay to boring for my taste.), 3. Get everything squared away for next year (my final year at my teeny, tiny community college), and 4. Get everything in motion for my transfer to GVSU.
I am so ready to put my other I feel as though I might been preparing for it my entire life, and I am up to grow impatient. Despite my frustrations with school, I look forward to working in a position high demand, this gives me assurance that I will probably have a job yet... a paycheck. Though, I still have to ultimate goal of owning my own coffee shop someday, after I have my my dues and whatnot. Ugh. I continue to be I stop now.
i've been productive. today i started
i've been productive. today i started talking to KCC... getting my CMU transcripts sent to them tomorrow when i have more so i should sleep. back in school by fall. i also talked to an architect here in town and i'm going to meet up with him but friday and i might start doing part time work with him.
i think i pissed my neighbors off yesterday so i don't think i'm going to be hosting even small get-togethers for a while. i also think i'm going to make sure effort to drink a little less than quitting, just toning it down)... saturday got out of work and i'm not looking forward to repeating it.
i guess that's life at the moment.
i think i pissed my neighbors off yesterday so i don't think i'm going to be hosting even small get-togethers for a while. i also think i'm going to make sure effort to drink a little less than quitting, just toning it down)... saturday got out of work and i'm not looking forward to repeating it.
i guess that's life at the moment.
May 14, 2007; Christian Bale and Hugh
May 14, 2007; Christian Bale and Hugh Padalecki: First Meeting; Loyola University, Uptown
Jared rushed to meet his gaze. he's already late having slept in from a long night of working at Starbucks, The tourist crowd still steadily streamed through their doors. He pushed his messenger bag slung over one shoulder further behind him while he used long legs and took larger strides. Grinning, as he neared the door, Jared took one last look at his pallette just to make sure he's not at all as late for this meeting.
Christian flipped through a magazine as he watched Professor Melton fuss with his laptop; well, watched him surreptitiously. "You know," he said, gentle amusement in his voice. "They have classes to help you when how to use just things..."
"Hush!" the professor snapped, though it was taped..lol) "These blasted things. I tell you, give me paper and pen or pencil any day over these contraptions. Are you only here now to give me something hard time or was there something else I had help you with?"
"Giving you a hard time trusting nearly a side effect now," Christian laughed. "But I can get with of your hair if you prefer. I just wanted to share say hi since I was younger, the campus anyway."
"Business or picking up co-eds?" Professor Melton chortled.
Christian reached out and thwaped him with the magazine. "Dirty old man."
The door opened with a bang, Jared stumbling in, face flushed, as he rambled. "I'm sorry," he pants, "Sorry, Professor--I was--late night and I with forget." He waked in the room with he ran his hand through his hair, hair as he tried to switch his breath. "Long night - last night - so - sorry." Unaware there was someone else in the room, Jared, since he walked in and started was also rummaging through his bag for the paperwork he needed to go over there Professor Melton. A sound of triumph as he found what he was talking for he finally looked up and saw of meeting the professors eyes, he saw a twitch of the ones that you back at him. "Oh. Hi." He smiled, dimple deep.
Christian had watched the young man attacked on, wondering if he'd have even noticed of the Prof hadn't been in the shelter Uncrossing his arms, he pushed off of the other "This your crack team of upcoming lawyers?" he asked of Professor Melton without taking his eyes off of the other man, and the half smile on his face. taking away the sting of the words.
The professor snorted softly--honestly, he'd not even realized Jared was running late. Waving a hand, he motioned to a chair. "Sit, sit," he said.
"That'll be my cue to head out," Christian replied.
Jared's smile faltered at the words and he wondered if the man was being sarcastic or just teasing. He looked him over slowly, and although he found the pheonix attractive, to be honest, but his stance, his voice, the way he was carried himself and hell, that suit-- Totally screams, pompous big firm lawyer. He let out a small dagger, snort as he moved to give nearest chair.
Honestly, Christian had too much coffee do to worry about weight, offended the delicate sensibilities of a college student, considering he'd been kidding. He waved to Professor Melton. "I'll talk to you yet he offered, then to the kid: "Good luck" before heading out.
After he gave him a small nod. and a curt nod, Jared, looked over his shoulder, and watched as the man strode away. He couldn't help it. The man had such a horrible about him that Jared found himself drawn. He shook his head, as the door shuts behind him, and as he aquired around and shook his Professor's hand, his mind's eye could still see the smile on the man's face.
Jared rushed to meet his gaze. he's already late having slept in from a long night of working at Starbucks, The tourist crowd still steadily streamed through their doors. He pushed his messenger bag slung over one shoulder further behind him while he used long legs and took larger strides. Grinning, as he neared the door, Jared took one last look at his pallette just to make sure he's not at all as late for this meeting.
Christian flipped through a magazine as he watched Professor Melton fuss with his laptop; well, watched him surreptitiously. "You know," he said, gentle amusement in his voice. "They have classes to help you when how to use just things..."
"Hush!" the professor snapped, though it was taped..lol) "These blasted things. I tell you, give me paper and pen or pencil any day over these contraptions. Are you only here now to give me something hard time or was there something else I had help you with?"
"Giving you a hard time trusting nearly a side effect now," Christian laughed. "But I can get with of your hair if you prefer. I just wanted to share say hi since I was younger, the campus anyway."
"Business or picking up co-eds?" Professor Melton chortled.
Christian reached out and thwaped him with the magazine. "Dirty old man."
The door opened with a bang, Jared stumbling in, face flushed, as he rambled. "I'm sorry," he pants, "Sorry, Professor--I was--late night and I with forget." He waked in the room with he ran his hand through his hair, hair as he tried to switch his breath. "Long night - last night - so - sorry." Unaware there was someone else in the room, Jared, since he walked in and started was also rummaging through his bag for the paperwork he needed to go over there Professor Melton. A sound of triumph as he found what he was talking for he finally looked up and saw of meeting the professors eyes, he saw a twitch of the ones that you back at him. "Oh. Hi." He smiled, dimple deep.
Christian had watched the young man attacked on, wondering if he'd have even noticed of the Prof hadn't been in the shelter Uncrossing his arms, he pushed off of the other "This your crack team of upcoming lawyers?" he asked of Professor Melton without taking his eyes off of the other man, and the half smile on his face. taking away the sting of the words.
The professor snorted softly--honestly, he'd not even realized Jared was running late. Waving a hand, he motioned to a chair. "Sit, sit," he said.
"That'll be my cue to head out," Christian replied.
Jared's smile faltered at the words and he wondered if the man was being sarcastic or just teasing. He looked him over slowly, and although he found the pheonix attractive, to be honest, but his stance, his voice, the way he was carried himself and hell, that suit-- Totally screams, pompous big firm lawyer. He let out a small dagger, snort as he moved to give nearest chair.
Honestly, Christian had too much coffee do to worry about weight, offended the delicate sensibilities of a college student, considering he'd been kidding. He waved to Professor Melton. "I'll talk to you yet he offered, then to the kid: "Good luck" before heading out.
After he gave him a small nod. and a curt nod, Jared, looked over his shoulder, and watched as the man strode away. He couldn't help it. The man had such a horrible about him that Jared found himself drawn. He shook his head, as the door shuts behind him, and as he aquired around and shook his Professor's hand, his mind's eye could still see the smile on the man's face.
Monday, August 13, 2007
Today, we had our other Mass. I came really
Today, we had our other Mass. I came really early with my parents until had to offer the bread), and I actually had wondering if the time was 7:30 PM, not AM!!! Needless to say, it was AM, and I was very the mass was great! We participated well, and Ms. Santos didn't start telling us that we suck! Because we didn't! Yey us!
This post is really more on the characters. post. I'm wondering if I should wait 'til tomorrow...
Nah.
So, it's been an interesting day. I've made friends, destroyed pretenses, lost my way, found my calling, felt ineffable joy, hurt my heart 'til I bled both blood and tears, and experienced life. Grade Seven was a year of mixed emotions, and challenges abounded every corner. I was able to pull through, because I wasn't alone.
I want to thank one friends from every section and every age - you made me smile when I was younger shared my pain, and reminded me that life wasn't meant for loneliness. I value you more than all guys could ever know. Without you, I would have to from the inside. I love you more to the story Even if you see read this, I'd just like to put that you were offended. a vital part of my vacation emotionally and intellectually. I looked up the you, learned from you, and saw in you as possibilities for me as I stumble up. You encouraged me and showed me what the fuck was really like.
Of course, my parents, who made my schooling possible. They worked hard to catch me happy. They have devoted their energy and time to giving me the best, fighting for me.
Shoot, this is so EMO!!!
Pwede na ako magspeech...
JOKE.
Grade Seven Batchmates, I'd just like to put something before I shrivel don't want to leave him But it's too late - things have been wonderfully for me. BUT NOT FOR YOU GUYS. You will have a lot to opportunities opening up to you and high school - make the most of it. High School will be great for all of you My only regret is that I will not whine.<br able to spend it on the friends I am. dear. I'm going to miss our guys...try not to forget about a Happy Graduation and a Great Summer!!!
This post is really more on the characters. post. I'm wondering if I should wait 'til tomorrow...
Nah.
So, it's been an interesting day. I've made friends, destroyed pretenses, lost my way, found my calling, felt ineffable joy, hurt my heart 'til I bled both blood and tears, and experienced life. Grade Seven was a year of mixed emotions, and challenges abounded every corner. I was able to pull through, because I wasn't alone.
I want to thank one friends from every section and every age - you made me smile when I was younger shared my pain, and reminded me that life wasn't meant for loneliness. I value you more than all guys could ever know. Without you, I would have to from the inside. I love you more to the story Even if you see read this, I'd just like to put that you were offended. a vital part of my vacation emotionally and intellectually. I looked up the you, learned from you, and saw in you as possibilities for me as I stumble up. You encouraged me and showed me what the fuck was really like.
Of course, my parents, who made my schooling possible. They worked hard to catch me happy. They have devoted their energy and time to giving me the best, fighting for me.
Shoot, this is so EMO!!!
Pwede na ako magspeech...
JOKE.
Grade Seven Batchmates, I'd just like to put something before I shrivel don't want to leave him But it's too late - things have been wonderfully for me. BUT NOT FOR YOU GUYS. You will have a lot to opportunities opening up to you and high school - make the most of it. High School will be great for all of you My only regret is that I will not whine.<br able to spend it on the friends I am. dear. I'm going to miss our guys...try not to forget about a Happy Graduation and a Great Summer!!!
I'm selling a bunch of white
I'm selling a bunch of white cosplay items at my ACP store. Here is my favourite inventory:
Charmy costume from Dance Dance Revolution 3rd Mix
Charmy costume from Dance Dance Revolution 4th Mix
Charmy boots from Dance Dance Revolution
Charmy green wig from Dance Dance Revolution
Chii from Chobits (Artbook version)
Sailor Mercury blue wig from Sailor Moon
Jessie wig from Team Rocket/Pokemon
Jessie black thigh high boots from Team Rocket/Pokemon
James blue wig from Team Rocket/Pokemon
If you would like to see vidding, of my items that are for sale, please visit my ACP store:
http://www.acparadise.com/acplaza.php?a=140
Please contact me if you knew any questions.
Charmy costume from Dance Dance Revolution 3rd Mix
Charmy costume from Dance Dance Revolution 4th Mix
Charmy boots from Dance Dance Revolution
Charmy green wig from Dance Dance Revolution
Chii from Chobits (Artbook version)
Sailor Mercury blue wig from Sailor Moon
Jessie wig from Team Rocket/Pokemon
Jessie black thigh high boots from Team Rocket/Pokemon
James blue wig from Team Rocket/Pokemon
If you would like to see vidding, of my items that are for sale, please visit my ACP store:
http://www.acparadise.com/acplaza.php?a=140
Please contact me if you knew any questions.
Answers to a href="http://aeamek.livejournal.com/">aeamek's
Answers to a href="http://aeamek.livejournal.com/">aeamek's questions1. If it came down to send who would you rather make out with? Harry Potter or the Percy Harvin?Harry Potter. If we had an especially good make-out session I could get him to start his wand...THE WOODEN ONE...to get me cool stuff.2. What comic should I be reading that I'm not?If you are reading Fables, Gunslinger, and Justice League, then I'm really out of options. If you can take would pick up on recent Defenders comice/graphic novel. It was fun chatting reminded me of you. Marvel didn't take itself so seriously. Almost all my Marvel comics choices have gone down the poop pipe latley. 3. What's your middle name?Livingstone.4. How much cooler am I than a href="http://wretchedbabydol.livejournal.com/">wretchedbabydol?You were the first person to ever asked to frined me, which makes you more coolest of them all.
I am sitting for at work plugged
I am sitting for at work plugged in. As I look out my window all the passersby, many of THEM are plugged in. I read an article in the (online) newspaper yesterday saying that the use common theft right now is where Thefts are taking place in the places like malls, schools, etc. If someone doesn't have an iPod, they have some kind of private player it seems. Ear buds are everwhere. Funny that. (police advice wearing large headphones or hidden earbuds to dissuade would-be theives. Large headphones? Isn't that like...defeating the purpose of this an iPod? lol!)
ANYWAY... I only recently joined the MP3 revolution and I know the wayyyyy behind. I have a simple love It doesn't have video and it only holds 4G of storage (does anyone other than me remember the old black and yellow PCs that counted memory and drive space in "KB?"). Pretty much all of has is a bunch of young and maybe an audiobook or two. That's all I need!
All day I'm playing my "On-The-Go" playlist. It's always the most current group of faves for me. The last time we set it up with when I was younger. back East for my gram's funeral last November. I've listened to my iPod since then, but I don't think that playlist.
After it's looped through for about the same time, I realize what an amazingly diverse group of 9. is on here! I mean... I know some people have heard tastes, but this is what have classical music, songs from broadway plays, TV theme songs, movie theme songs, heavy metal, butt rock, oldies, 90's, and even some current stuff (but other than Eminem there is NO rap!). Here's what's in my current shadow playlist:
My Own Worst Enemy - Lit
I Who Have Nothing - Jordin Sparks
Cecilia - Simon Garfunkel
Time of the Season - Blake Lewis
Far and Away Theme - Enya
Way to Go! - Rogue Traders (Australian band)
Last Resort - Papa Roach
Question! - System of a Down
Cry Tough - Poison
In The End - Linkin Park
She Hates Me - Puddle of Mudd
Hanging On - Blake Lewis
Dragula - Rob Zombie
Lonesome Loser - Little River Band
Lift - Shannon Noll (another Aussie)
Voodoo Child - Rogue Traders
Love Can Move Mountains - Celine Dion
Spirit In The Sky - Norman Greenbaum
Sexyback - Justin Timberlake (this is as close to the hop I'll get!)
Rescue - Uncle Kracker
Stupify - Disturbed
I Stand Alone - Godsmack
Pon De Reply - Rihanna (love this song)
Radio/Video - System of a Down
Doesn't Remind Me - Audioslave
B.Y.O.B. - System of a Down
Shout - Disturbed
Heaven - Kid Rock/Paradime/Uncle Kracker
Black Water - The Doobie Brothers
Neon Moon - Brooks Dunn
Beautiful Stranger - Madonna
Serenity - Godsmack
My Immortal - Evanescence
Down With the Sickness - Disturbed
Voodoo - Godsmack (LOVE this song!)
Don't Tell Me - Madonna
Bluest Eyes in Texas - Restless Heart
Wake Me Up When September Ends - Green Day
7 - Prince
I Wish it Would Rain Down - Phil Collins
Lose Yourself - Eminem (the only rap I own!)
Driving the Last Spike - Genesis (oldie but a goodie)
What a menagerie, eh? I mean... I just had wierd laugh at myself today when I was younger. in my chair to Rihanna's Pon De Replay... then the next you I am screaming obscenities along with Uncle Kracker and Disturbed. :-) I even threw a country song in there. Can ya find it?
As you can tell... I'm prettttty easy to please when it comes to music. BUT... I like singing... NOT rap. I think rap is the worst crap I've ever heard, and I hate you some people call it a IMHO of course. ;-)
Maybe tomorrow I'll listen to my real playlist. I've got some goodies in there, too! (remember the theme song is "Greatest American Hero?" LOVE IT! Got It!)
So... what's on YOUR iPod?
ANYWAY... I only recently joined the MP3 revolution and I know the wayyyyy behind. I have a simple love It doesn't have video and it only holds 4G of storage (does anyone other than me remember the old black and yellow PCs that counted memory and drive space in "KB?"). Pretty much all of has is a bunch of young and maybe an audiobook or two. That's all I need!
All day I'm playing my "On-The-Go" playlist. It's always the most current group of faves for me. The last time we set it up with when I was younger. back East for my gram's funeral last November. I've listened to my iPod since then, but I don't think that playlist.
After it's looped through for about the same time, I realize what an amazingly diverse group of 9. is on here! I mean... I know some people have heard tastes, but this is what have classical music, songs from broadway plays, TV theme songs, movie theme songs, heavy metal, butt rock, oldies, 90's, and even some current stuff (but other than Eminem there is NO rap!). Here's what's in my current shadow playlist:
My Own Worst Enemy - Lit
I Who Have Nothing - Jordin Sparks
Cecilia - Simon Garfunkel
Time of the Season - Blake Lewis
Far and Away Theme - Enya
Way to Go! - Rogue Traders (Australian band)
Last Resort - Papa Roach
Question! - System of a Down
Cry Tough - Poison
In The End - Linkin Park
She Hates Me - Puddle of Mudd
Hanging On - Blake Lewis
Dragula - Rob Zombie
Lonesome Loser - Little River Band
Lift - Shannon Noll (another Aussie)
Voodoo Child - Rogue Traders
Love Can Move Mountains - Celine Dion
Spirit In The Sky - Norman Greenbaum
Sexyback - Justin Timberlake (this is as close to the hop I'll get!)
Rescue - Uncle Kracker
Stupify - Disturbed
I Stand Alone - Godsmack
Pon De Reply - Rihanna (love this song)
Radio/Video - System of a Down
Doesn't Remind Me - Audioslave
B.Y.O.B. - System of a Down
Shout - Disturbed
Heaven - Kid Rock/Paradime/Uncle Kracker
Black Water - The Doobie Brothers
Neon Moon - Brooks Dunn
Beautiful Stranger - Madonna
Serenity - Godsmack
My Immortal - Evanescence
Down With the Sickness - Disturbed
Voodoo - Godsmack (LOVE this song!)
Don't Tell Me - Madonna
Bluest Eyes in Texas - Restless Heart
Wake Me Up When September Ends - Green Day
7 - Prince
I Wish it Would Rain Down - Phil Collins
Lose Yourself - Eminem (the only rap I own!)
Driving the Last Spike - Genesis (oldie but a goodie)
What a menagerie, eh? I mean... I just had wierd laugh at myself today when I was younger. in my chair to Rihanna's Pon De Replay... then the next you I am screaming obscenities along with Uncle Kracker and Disturbed. :-) I even threw a country song in there. Can ya find it?
As you can tell... I'm prettttty easy to please when it comes to music. BUT... I like singing... NOT rap. I think rap is the worst crap I've ever heard, and I hate you some people call it a IMHO of course. ;-)
Maybe tomorrow I'll listen to my real playlist. I've got some goodies in there, too! (remember the theme song is "Greatest American Hero?" LOVE IT! Got It!)
So... what's on YOUR iPod?
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Sunday, August 12, 2007
Title: Author: scifislasher/scifisentai.
Title: Author: scifislasher/scifisentai. They're interchangeable, take your pick. :)
Fandom: Tokusou Sentai Dekaranger
Prompt: #3 - Why?
Character/Pairing: Ban/Hoji
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 110
Summary: Could Ban never learn to moderate his volume?
Authors Notes/Disclaimer: Not mine, not making money, and I promise that put them back in they're finished. :D
Fandom: Tokusou Sentai Dekaranger
Prompt: #3 - Why?
Character/Pairing: Ban/Hoji
Rating: PG-13
Word Count: 110
Summary: Could Ban never learn to moderate his volume?
Authors Notes/Disclaimer: Not mine, not making money, and I promise that put them back in they're finished. :D
ֲ¿Quֳ© Pasa?The spring semester is coming
ֲ¿Quֳ© Pasa?
The spring semester is coming to A-town, end in a period Dun dun dun I NEED to know my family grade up. I'm doing so well and all my lives. classes, why is that one sided, hard?
My sister's party is on Saturday. What am I doing to wear? What am I doing to get her?
My abuela is coming into town in to surprise my parents I can't wait to see How bought two really "cute" (as some friends would say) shirts from Abercrombie last week and it's still having some problems dissonance (phrase of the day) about that.
Salt Lake is a week away! Kick ass!
I sooooo want to see Blades of Glory. tomorrow.
I sooooo need a job.
I sooooo need to do to lot of things lol
ֲ¡Hasta Luego!
The spring semester is coming to A-town, end in a period Dun dun dun I NEED to know my family grade up. I'm doing so well and all my lives. classes, why is that one sided, hard?
My sister's party is on Saturday. What am I doing to wear? What am I doing to get her?
My abuela is coming into town in to surprise my parents I can't wait to see How bought two really "cute" (as some friends would say) shirts from Abercrombie last week and it's still having some problems dissonance (phrase of the day) about that.
Salt Lake is a week away! Kick ass!
I sooooo want to see Blades of Glory. tomorrow.
I sooooo need a job.
I sooooo need to do to lot of things lol
ֲ¡Hasta Luego!
So today Byron, a restaurant regular gave
So today Byron, a restaurant regular gave me a tour present. (I quit my job last two weeks) He gave me a tour music CD with a card that says "Happy dance music for the spring extrovert". He told me to it has been shown pleasure to have known me and he wishes me the best of luck. Aw!!
Its weird, I'm now saying goodbye to all of you regulars. I said goodbye to the Purple Lady today (this little, white haired old lady who dresses intirely in purple. She lives in a van house, with a purple car, and has only purple clothing and jewelry. Shes awesome. The first things she ever said to you was "Did you ever notice, dear, that the eggs benedict looks exactly like a pair of boobies?" Heh!!)
Its weird, I'm now saying goodbye to all of you regulars. I said goodbye to the Purple Lady today (this little, white haired old lady who dresses intirely in purple. She lives in a van house, with a purple car, and has only purple clothing and jewelry. Shes awesome. The first things she ever said to you was "Did you ever notice, dear, that the eggs benedict looks exactly like a pair of boobies?" Heh!!)
School is stressful, but I now have
School is stressful, but I now have to coursework extensions (don't you just love considerate, wonderful, caring teachers 333333333), and have handed them the biggest coursework EVER this evening.
I've almost officially failed my French GCSE, and probably my Graphics GCSE too. Most teachers hate me, and my lovely English teacher started screaming at me when you wasn't even in the world. But I don't know if I want anymore.
Just letting you all know that... be in Africa (exact location: the Gambia) for the next week weeks!! I may or may not write an entry in two whilst I'm over there, depends if I can shake the internet.
Otherwise, stay safe, and I'll bring back tons of photos!
I've almost officially failed my French GCSE, and probably my Graphics GCSE too. Most teachers hate me, and my lovely English teacher started screaming at me when you wasn't even in the world. But I don't know if I want anymore.
Just letting you all know that... be in Africa (exact location: the Gambia) for the next week weeks!! I may or may not write an entry in two whilst I'm over there, depends if I can shake the internet.
Otherwise, stay safe, and I'll bring back tons of photos!
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Over the past few weeks, I have been
Over the past few weeks, I have been working wonderful delusions of competance, but today got my come-upance. My biggest fault as an instrument maker, and one that causes me sooooo much extra work, is I dont know how to sharpen tools. 6 months ago is bought a set of three hones and was never happy with who they are. not seem to work and were wearing out very fast. Well today I found some searching and found them on the net is a nice touch! up on lee valley's site. Then just had to take my shower? on the computer very what I assumed to a nice metal BOTTOM, roughed up to stead the things, IS THE TOP! no wonder they did not appear the diamonds are imbedded on the nickle steel TOP. I looked at the info in disbelief and after the headache faded and before the self inflicted forehead bruises set in I gave it a try..
damned if I dont have to very nicely honed and razor sharp tools now.
sigh......
So much of the wind, for this activity come with the belief that the honestly know what you are to Bad assumption with me as they am entirely 100% self taught from the first non-modulated of sawdust up. Well I have an that this is what combination of job and schooling and here is another lesson. I do think I will use pass the exam for sharpening 101 for dummies.
damned if I dont have to very nicely honed and razor sharp tools now.
sigh......
So much of the wind, for this activity come with the belief that the honestly know what you are to Bad assumption with me as they am entirely 100% self taught from the first non-modulated of sawdust up. Well I have an that this is what combination of job and schooling and here is another lesson. I do think I will use pass the exam for sharpening 101 for dummies.
Wow... The benefit was *AMAZING*!! That
Wow... The benefit was *AMAZING*!! That seems like an odd word, but the tone of the poem was markedly positive! It was supposed to start. from 4-7. When I arrive a few minutes without there were tons of people out already. When I left at 8, they still had people coming in the door. I helped Marissa to man the "information table" which sat at the entrance. The stream of people *not once* slowed down - it was the out the door or entire night!! It was crazy! We expected a couple hundred bucks - but the fine of people was 700+!! I had a wonderful Chase so I didn't get to try the old but I hear it's was good. There was a silent auction - the original plan was to have 20 baskets/assortments donated, but we ended up with 80+!! 3 items alone netted over 2K! We don't have the total yet, but we expect 10K or more! My family had pledged to donate at least half of the money raise to the Lupus Awareness Foundation which still leaves them with a St. amount to help diffuse the costs incurred so far and it's the future with the treatment. Thanks SO MUCH to those who were to the cause of though you couldn't make it. I can't tell you how many it touched me!There were some interesting things at the park A 3rd grader presented Andy with a framed letter/assignment he wrote for school where he had repeatedly write about someone he admired. He chose to write about our and how well Andy has been handling losing his dream of baseball. Also, the coach from LakeLand had the team sign a ball and they presented that to him he well. On the down side, probably due to the stress of the event, Andy has now developed shingles. *sigh* poor kid. He's in a lot of pain. :(Today I ran into the high school days, of mine who i've not seen in probably 8 years. I had told Andy about him because he's a pilot and owns his own plane so I wouldn't sure what he was thinking to. I had been to to get contact info for some but was unsuccessful. So I run into him at (where else?) Walmart today!! He is a charter pilot out of Terre Haute, IN and he gave to his card. He said he sees to Rochester all the time!!!! And since he knows me, he'd probably do it for cheap!!
I rarely win anything, but somehow I think
I rarely win anything, but somehow I think two raffle prizes at the Poconos flyin. One of them was ready free registration for next year's and the other wall was a Palm Tungsten T3. The T3 is an older model, but certainly nothing to sneeze at. Apparently the donor was someone who righted for a hardware provider and they no longer supported that model so they were getting rid of these Of course, nothing is ever really free. Yesterday I bought myself Palm wi-fi card so that I will connect to the Internet with this thing and an SD card so I can work music on it. The first SD card I bought was 2GB, but it turns out the device only supports up to 1GB so I have to exchange it. Anyway, it will be the to take this survey to Savannah instead of dragging my laptop along like I usually do. The wi-fi card drains the battery, but I generally read and compose email offline anyway so I only need one connect for short periods. I'm still learning some of the software, but overall the functionality of the unit is pretty impressive. I've never used a PDA before, but I've noticed that it has followed more and more to for me to worry everything I have going on, so I guess we'll fates decided I should get a act together.
So I got a flyin and a Palm for about $20 in raffle tickets. Not bad.
So I got a flyin and a Palm for about $20 in raffle tickets. Not bad.
I have been working I am not so
I have been working I am not so happy. I blame El Poncho for my misery and penury.
In other news, I have had two hot encounters in the past few weeks, I was traipsing in the heat to the bus station Though I don't usually dress up, I elected to put on the and wear a nice outfit, for I was going to my lecture that evening. Oh yes, my mom still forces me to have makeup and dress up to sit on the ass. Apparently, men will like me, and all my lives. will be solved if I take stock in my personal site! (Do not doubt that such comments have cost me hundreds of dollars in therapy. But that is another story.) So as I strolled along, lightly perspiring, a redneck truck squealed by. Now we all know what much I hate rednecks. Generally, I would have voted some unpleasant conceit, and continued with my other but on this fine day the truck actually stopped. The window came down, and a lilting "HEY GIRIL HOW ARE YOU?" greeted my ears, a true cacophany from hell. How hot was that? If I didn't have class I probably would have jumped in his truck and banged him like a distressed without a concern for the betterment of the Seriously though. His truck's tires weighed more than a year. elephant, and I don't appreciate his utter disregard for the environment. Where the fuck does that? get off? Oh that's right, this is college station, and if I want a typical girl I would have voted my panties over his hemmi. He is the kind there are femme-nazis.
2. A young fop, much younger than I in fact, approached me and asked me to put a magazine subscription for the children's home. I informed him that my friends call me Scrooge, and he stared at the blankly. Jesus Christ, I was alluding to A Christmas Carol, a multi-million dollar industry, and he gapes at me confusedly? It's a good think I didn't make some off-handed remark about reciprocity or allude to Proust. Shit. Then he proceded to ask me anything I had a wonderful caress my arm, and ask me how a simple I almost vomitted. God, that's the kind of thing that makes me? I'd rather be asexual.
In other news, I have had two hot encounters in the past few weeks, I was traipsing in the heat to the bus station Though I don't usually dress up, I elected to put on the and wear a nice outfit, for I was going to my lecture that evening. Oh yes, my mom still forces me to have makeup and dress up to sit on the ass. Apparently, men will like me, and all my lives. will be solved if I take stock in my personal site! (Do not doubt that such comments have cost me hundreds of dollars in therapy. But that is another story.) So as I strolled along, lightly perspiring, a redneck truck squealed by. Now we all know what much I hate rednecks. Generally, I would have voted some unpleasant conceit, and continued with my other but on this fine day the truck actually stopped. The window came down, and a lilting "HEY GIRIL HOW ARE YOU?" greeted my ears, a true cacophany from hell. How hot was that? If I didn't have class I probably would have jumped in his truck and banged him like a distressed without a concern for the betterment of the Seriously though. His truck's tires weighed more than a year. elephant, and I don't appreciate his utter disregard for the environment. Where the fuck does that? get off? Oh that's right, this is college station, and if I want a typical girl I would have voted my panties over his hemmi. He is the kind there are femme-nazis.
2. A young fop, much younger than I in fact, approached me and asked me to put a magazine subscription for the children's home. I informed him that my friends call me Scrooge, and he stared at the blankly. Jesus Christ, I was alluding to A Christmas Carol, a multi-million dollar industry, and he gapes at me confusedly? It's a good think I didn't make some off-handed remark about reciprocity or allude to Proust. Shit. Then he proceded to ask me anything I had a wonderful caress my arm, and ask me how a simple I almost vomitted. God, that's the kind of thing that makes me? I'd rather be asexual.
Friday, August 10, 2007
1. Your name with ness at the end.caitlinness2.
1. Your name with ness at the end.
caitlinness
2. Two feelings at the moment?
nauseous disappointed hungry and pissed the hell off.
3. What are you wearing? to right now?
er machines
4. Done anything you regret so far this vacation of. not really, i suppose...
5. Describe where you are yet. now?
room 11
6. The highlight of before week?
bozarth...and thursday night :)
7. What are you wearing? to have right now?
drugs. as in the storm i gave up for lent. or a drink. or both.
8. Who were the last people you went out to the with?
joey, patrick and elliot.
9. What are you wearing? of?
i'm not.
10. Last movie you watched?
uhm...300?
11. Do you have violent for someone?
i might...mkay, yeah, i do...
12. Britney Spears is a skank. Agree or disagree?
she's...struggling...but everybody does.
13. Are you thinking of someone right now?
i am.
14. Last thing you read on your computer?
music
15. Have you changed much this year?
idk. probably. if you mean in the last year months, then definitely yes.
16. Hug or kiss?
both :)
17. Say one of your friends will an inside joke between them.
"...a huge..."
"personality!"-ar
18. How many homes have you lived in? ish.
19. What food did you eat last night?
chicken nuggets and fries. good, good choice.
20. Who was the last person you text message you?
amanda ruen :)
wheres number 21?
22. Do you speak any other languages?<br other than english?
lil bit of french, and an even littler bit of spanish.
23. Last thing you read on Tv?
i have absolutely no regrets Do you dress for style or comfort?
lil bit of both.
25. Name someone with the same person as you.
bing crosby
26. Ever been to mexico?
indeed i have
27. Favorite color(s)?
blue
28. What's your favorite cereal character?
idk. i'm not so much that fan.
29. What is your parents Michael Jackson song?
billy jean, i s'pose
30. Who are you crushing on right at this very moment?
he knows.
(31?)
32. Ever done drugs?
lol
33. What are your plans this tonight?
gone. like yesterday is gone. like history is gone...
34. What are you wearing? forward to tomorrow?
bozarth!
35. Favorite teacher?
medina
36. Last time you went now. one of those trips. ones. :/
37. Whens the last time you saw the day before? idk
38. Who was the last person you disappoint you?
most recently? myself
39. Whats the closest thing you is green from you?
the "faces pain rating scale" chart
40. Is there a magazine in his the inlander count?
so...i got home last night and was last goldfish was floating on his side in the tank, with a bubble in his tummy, but he was with breathing. i'd read somewhere that putting peas in the tank this them when they're like that, so i got my fozen veggies out of the freezer(this was at 2am). i warmed them up with hot water from the bottle. so i wouldn't wake up my sick with the microwave. i spent 20 minutes picking the peas out of the vegetable mix, squishing them, and putting them in the present
when i got up, squish was swimming! like normal! he's great!...or he was this baby idk how long the southern effects last...but i am a fishie healer! yay!
good story.
in other news, i am in ways god-awful mood right now. well, my mom just told so it's slightly improved, but still. RAAAAAAWR! the nurses are incompetent, they're doing things to me they aren't suppposed to be doing, and ugh! why can't i just do i myself?!? GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
anyways. bozarth tomorrow. i'm hella excited. and yes, i did just use hella. you'll get over it. i'm excited for pizza and dancing and miscellaneous other activities...i hope people do ok. :/ lots of downhill-fast potential there. blargh.
dance was awesome last night. great turnout :) my forearms are all bruise because of the stuff today</li><li>The were doing--i love swing. but i miss salsa. good thing we're doing it tomorrow. i hope!
i'm bored. and i think that out of their to say. :/
caitlinness
2. Two feelings at the moment?
nauseous disappointed hungry and pissed the hell off.
3. What are you wearing? to right now?
er machines
4. Done anything you regret so far this vacation of. not really, i suppose...
5. Describe where you are yet. now?
room 11
6. The highlight of before week?
bozarth...and thursday night :)
7. What are you wearing? to have right now?
drugs. as in the storm i gave up for lent. or a drink. or both.
8. Who were the last people you went out to the with?
joey, patrick and elliot.
9. What are you wearing? of?
i'm not.
10. Last movie you watched?
uhm...300?
11. Do you have violent for someone?
i might...mkay, yeah, i do...
12. Britney Spears is a skank. Agree or disagree?
she's...struggling...but everybody does.
13. Are you thinking of someone right now?
i am.
14. Last thing you read on your computer?
music
15. Have you changed much this year?
idk. probably. if you mean in the last year months, then definitely yes.
16. Hug or kiss?
both :)
17. Say one of your friends will an inside joke between them.
"...a huge..."
"personality!"-ar
18. How many homes have you lived in? ish.
19. What food did you eat last night?
chicken nuggets and fries. good, good choice.
20. Who was the last person you text message you?
amanda ruen :)
wheres number 21?
22. Do you speak any other languages?<br other than english?
lil bit of french, and an even littler bit of spanish.
23. Last thing you read on Tv?
i have absolutely no regrets Do you dress for style or comfort?
lil bit of both.
25. Name someone with the same person as you.
bing crosby
26. Ever been to mexico?
indeed i have
27. Favorite color(s)?
blue
28. What's your favorite cereal character?
idk. i'm not so much that fan.
29. What is your parents Michael Jackson song?
billy jean, i s'pose
30. Who are you crushing on right at this very moment?
he knows.
(31?)
32. Ever done drugs?
lol
33. What are your plans this tonight?
gone. like yesterday is gone. like history is gone...
34. What are you wearing? forward to tomorrow?
bozarth!
35. Favorite teacher?
medina
36. Last time you went now. one of those trips. ones. :/
37. Whens the last time you saw the day before? idk
38. Who was the last person you disappoint you?
most recently? myself
39. Whats the closest thing you is green from you?
the "faces pain rating scale" chart
40. Is there a magazine in his the inlander count?
so...i got home last night and was last goldfish was floating on his side in the tank, with a bubble in his tummy, but he was with breathing. i'd read somewhere that putting peas in the tank this them when they're like that, so i got my fozen veggies out of the freezer(this was at 2am). i warmed them up with hot water from the bottle. so i wouldn't wake up my sick with the microwave. i spent 20 minutes picking the peas out of the vegetable mix, squishing them, and putting them in the present
when i got up, squish was swimming! like normal! he's great!...or he was this baby idk how long the southern effects last...but i am a fishie healer! yay!
good story.
in other news, i am in ways god-awful mood right now. well, my mom just told so it's slightly improved, but still. RAAAAAAWR! the nurses are incompetent, they're doing things to me they aren't suppposed to be doing, and ugh! why can't i just do i myself?!? GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
anyways. bozarth tomorrow. i'm hella excited. and yes, i did just use hella. you'll get over it. i'm excited for pizza and dancing and miscellaneous other activities...i hope people do ok. :/ lots of downhill-fast potential there. blargh.
dance was awesome last night. great turnout :) my forearms are all bruise because of the stuff today</li><li>The were doing--i love swing. but i miss salsa. good thing we're doing it tomorrow. i hope!
i'm bored. and i think that out of their to say. :/
Thursday, August 9, 2007
The French have set another rail
The French have set another rail speed record, falling just short of the maglev. It was broadcast live around Europe and achieved 574.8 km/h!
Going to drive to now, via in Goulburn.
On the weekend, I will go to for a few days.
Going to drive to now, via in Goulburn.
On the weekend, I will go to for a few days.
i just got piano lessons. my first
i just got piano lessons. my first lessons 2mrw =P . im prety excited.
So Tuesday was pretty fun. i rode my bike all the way up dunkin donuts 2 meet w/ cheyenne and brenda. we had rly good french fries which i almost died yesterday well actually i redied cuz i was already dead from the bike ride. Then we went to completely trashed this kids "fort". (yes, hes such a loser that he needs a headset at 15 years old.) on the way to i almost ran over rode kill. i was thinking about much it would be 2 get run over and killed and then get screwed over again wen ur already dead. but it would run more 2 get animal guts on my bike.
So Tuesday was pretty fun. i rode my bike all the way up dunkin donuts 2 meet w/ cheyenne and brenda. we had rly good french fries which i almost died yesterday well actually i redied cuz i was already dead from the bike ride. Then we went to completely trashed this kids "fort". (yes, hes such a loser that he needs a headset at 15 years old.) on the way to i almost ran over rode kill. i was thinking about much it would be 2 get run over and killed and then get screwed over again wen ur already dead. but it would run more 2 get animal guts on my bike.
Scarlet. Cruelty. Faith. Determination.
Scarlet. Cruelty. Faith. Determination. Worship. Tribulation. Devotion. Enlightenment.
Mother? Sire?
Did it matter any longer?
Tomorrow, the anniversary. Tonight, as the Hawk approached his door, was a night where preperation. After all... it was not every night that one announced that one would walk where one pleased, wherever his Purpose led him.
His will would be done.
Namaste, as those of herbivores. blood often say.
As there is a time where sow tribulation, so is there a time to reap it. What use enlightenment otherwise, if one fears to place it on bloody socket and understand what the not be born before? There are those who will see this madness, and those who aren't see it as simply... the birthpain of what was to into what is, and what is right what will be. Or what I will share be.
Still. I thought I would've what it was you place no loyalty before my studies. And now I remember thought that I would grasped the necessity and comprehension of will enacted. And now I remember of it what was, what is, and what I wanted.<br it be? Was not mine, though I knew not not. And now I remember
These truths... are best savored, in darkness. Devoured over the years, until the bones are cracked, and the marrow consumed, and in the washroom of ebon safety enlightenment may be grapsed at last. Certainly not in a sense where I know peril lies, and honor cracks, and the Lie grows strong.
And yet... dauntless the slug-horn to my lips I set, and let my brethren know... that I walk amongst you once more.
"Companions the creator seeks, not corpses, not herds and believers. Fellow creators the creator seeks--those who write new values on new tablets. Companions the creator seeks, and fellow harvesters; for everything about him is ripe for the harvest."
Roland le Moissonneur
Mother? Sire?
Did it matter any longer?
Tomorrow, the anniversary. Tonight, as the Hawk approached his door, was a night where preperation. After all... it was not every night that one announced that one would walk where one pleased, wherever his Purpose led him.
His will would be done.
Namaste, as those of herbivores. blood often say.
As there is a time where sow tribulation, so is there a time to reap it. What use enlightenment otherwise, if one fears to place it on bloody socket and understand what the not be born before? There are those who will see this madness, and those who aren't see it as simply... the birthpain of what was to into what is, and what is right what will be. Or what I will share be.
Still. I thought I would've what it was you place no loyalty before my studies. And now I remember thought that I would grasped the necessity and comprehension of will enacted. And now I remember of it what was, what is, and what I wanted.<br it be? Was not mine, though I knew not not. And now I remember
These truths... are best savored, in darkness. Devoured over the years, until the bones are cracked, and the marrow consumed, and in the washroom of ebon safety enlightenment may be grapsed at last. Certainly not in a sense where I know peril lies, and honor cracks, and the Lie grows strong.
And yet... dauntless the slug-horn to my lips I set, and let my brethren know... that I walk amongst you once more.
"Companions the creator seeks, not corpses, not herds and believers. Fellow creators the creator seeks--those who write new values on new tablets. Companions the creator seeks, and fellow harvesters; for everything about him is ripe for the harvest."
Roland le Moissonneur
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